CANCELLED: I’m so sorry my loves! Isn’t this the way it always happens! I got so excited for this and wish it could happen but I had something come up that evening unexpectedly. Please forgive me, I’ll make it up to you MSP!

  • April 23, 2019 - 9:48 am

    Melissa Rowley - Hi Brooke, just a heads up that the main entrance to Hidden Falls Regional Park is currently closed due to flooding. There is still a way to see the falls from an alternate parking lot/staircase and plenty of space to have a Meet Up but I wanted you to be aware. I’m hoping I’ll be able to attend but still confirming my schedule.ReplyCancel

  • April 23, 2019 - 6:08 pm

    Gallagher Green - I don’t know why, but this hit me as so funny! LOL I just wasn’t expecting it. Life always throws those curve balls! 🙂ReplyCancel

Y’all, what a night. What a week. What a journey these few months have been. I went from a strong concept for a photo series to creating the images and knowing in my heart that it didn’t work. So, I tweaked the concept, made new images, and it failed even worse.

Then I took a step back and rethought the situation again, this time only taking into account what spoke to me and not what I thought I should be doing (why haven’t I learned by now?). And, in the past 10 days, I have produced some work that I am most proud of in all my portfolio.

But then the time came to share it with my gallery. In all these months, even as the days quickly tick by to my exhibition in June, I hadn’t shown them anything. That’s some foundational trust right there. But today I decided it was time. With 7 images nearly complete and a few more on the way, I sent it.

I shared the individual images as well as composites of how they would be exhibited. I hit send on that email and held my breath, literally refreshing my email every few seconds to see if a response had come. I was so anxious, my heart beat out of my chest. The waiting is the worst part.

What if they hate it? How will I make a whole new series in a month? How will I produce something worthy of a NYC solo exhibition? Will I have to do a retrospective of my current body of work instead of showcasing something new? What if they cancel the show?

And then all of those questions fled. The email came in. She loves it. They all love it at the gallery. And with a few words, I remembered that these relationships, while fundamentally business, are also family. JoAnne, Tayler, and everyone at the JoAnne Artman Gallery support me like I am family. They have for almost 8 years.

They took a chance on me as a baby artist. Only 23 years old with extremely little experience. They not only gave me a show with them, but they chose to represent me. To bring me up as an emerging artist and showcase my work. They believed it was important. They still do.

And that gives me chills. There are days that I can’t believe I have support like that. Mornings I wake up and doubt my vision, times I think no one cares. But then nights like this come along, where I get so much support from someone who never had to take a chance on me, and I remember how incredibly supported I am.

I can’t wait for this show. I think it’s going to be beautiful. I really do.

If you want to come to the opening, here are the details:

JoAnne Artman Gallery
511 A West 22nd St.
New York, NY 10011
Showing: June 13, 2019 – August 31, 2019
Artist’s Reception: June 13th, 2019 from 6pm-8pm

  • March 28, 2019 - 8:26 pm

    Sydney Paige Richardson - I’m so incredibly happy for you! What you have shared on Instagram is gorgeous. I can’t wait to see the images when you post them (I’m way too far away from New York). Thank you for the voicemail this evening. It was great to listen to something so happy before I go to bed! 🙂ReplyCancel

  • March 28, 2019 - 10:30 pm

    Gallagher Green - It is 12:30 AM (I am shot!) I am just finishing some re-reading and writing, and I saw this post and had to listen to it. I am so glad I did, this makes me so incredibly happy! I am aware that I only know a tiny bit of what all happened, but I know this series has been very hard for you to hunt down and find you grove with. I am so proud of you for hanging in there and doing it!
    Great job!!!ReplyCancel

  • March 29, 2019 - 6:17 am

    Mati Gelman - Ahhh your happiness resonates in your voice! I was excited to hear you talk about it. And I really can’t wait to see it when it opens in June! Woohoo!ReplyCancel

  • March 29, 2019 - 6:55 am

    Maureen Denny - Big congrats! That is incredible news. Listening to your voicemail almost made me cry happy tears for you. It’s a beautiful reminder that we all are human and experience self doubt. Pushing past it is a muscle we have to exercise. Thank you for a beautiful reminder and story. ❤️ReplyCancel

What an intense couple of weeks. I’ve worked 14-16 hour days every single day. I launched Promoting Passion. It was insane. I got a much better response than I ever thought possible. Full disclosure, my goal was 200 sign-ups in the first week and 300 total. I got 600 in the first week. I’m flabbergasted.

But in addition to launching my event, crunch time came for a series I’m working on. I started working on it seriously 3 months ago. Nothing worked. I hated everything I shot, I didn’t feel connected to it. I was trying something really different and it didn’t resonate.

I tried changing ideas and forcing my way through it. I did this up until a week ago. I found myself up to my knees in mud with a heavy cobblers shoe shooting hundreds of pictures that I knew in my gut weren’t going to work. To boot (pun intended), I did the whole shoot with a drunk man yelling at me about how interesting I looked and how life is better naked. It was weird, and I was unhappy, and well, don’t I look it in this picture?

So a week ago I did something to change my circumstance. I scrapped the series as I knew it. I changed the theme slightly. I made myself sit down to a serious brainstorming session. And it worked.

By letting go of what I thought I had to do, I embraced a whole new vision. The ideas flowed effortlessly. I started to feel connected to my creativity again. And when I went out for that first shoot, I was so happy. I felt alive.

Every shoot since then has evoked the same feeling. I’ve been out shooting every single evening for a week. Experimenting. Attempting. Succeeding. Failing. I’ve managed to make four images this week for the series. Two of them I’m iffy on, but think will work out once I edit some more. Two of them are some of my favorite images I’ve ever made.

I’m ecstatic, through the roof, so happy for my creativity to be in full swing and embracing every day. Even though the days are long, and dinners have been late, and my Star Trek consumption and book are slightly neglected…I’m so happy.

I’ll debut the series in June in NYC. More details on that later.

Sending inspiration,

P.S. If you want to join the Promoting Passion Tour, here is more information.

  • March 26, 2019 - 6:03 pm

    Stacy Honda - I needed to hear this today! You give me hope. I’ve have been trying to force creativity lately and have been getting nowhere. I know my frustration is just going to make it worse. Brainstorming with a fresh piece of paper sounds like a good idea! : )
    I’m so glad you are back to happily creating! And that grumpy looking picture with your muddy feet is hilarious: )

    Thanks for the message!ReplyCancel

  • March 26, 2019 - 10:40 pm

    Gallagher Green - In this photo, you look like you are a minute away from beating the drunk with the cobbler’s shoe. You really look fed up! And I see why. I can’t stand being around anyone that has been drinking at all. Probably due to my history, but I just want nothing to do with it!
    Two out of four is really good! And the two you have shared a bit of on Instagram look really great!

    I have been burning the midnight oil as well (it is 12:28 AM right now” my brother and I have been loading and hauling scrap metal to sell all day, and then I write until after midnight. It is a little rough, but I have to keep doing something creative.
    Can’t wait for the release of the series in June. ReplyCancel

The word is SPONTANEOUS, Brooke.

I’m letting my voicemail do the talking for this one. Mostly because I’m stressed today. And I have too many things on my to-do list. And I need to go to the grocery store. And I’m hungry. And I want to watch Star Trek (Voyager).

See, I’m getting better at taking care of my entrepreneurial self. And I’m attempting to not write my 161st blog post. I only half succeeded there. If you listen, you’ll understand.

Love and hugs,

  • March 15, 2019 - 7:50 pm

    Ale Fragoso - I was having one of those days myself today and this audio gave me peace! So thank you ♥ReplyCancel

  • March 15, 2019 - 9:29 pm

    Gallagher Green - Now, this sounds weird or even creepy, but something about listening to you talk, in this little podcast is very calming for me. I instantly feel less stressed.
    It has been stressful but not stressful all at once. I quit my job, but my brain tells me every day I need to go to work when I don’t. So my days just feel wrong.
    However, I also do not have an income now, but I have tons of work to do before I can leave for Europe. It has been stressful even though I am freer. Then yesterday there was the shooting in New Zealand, these always upset me so much, and I also get so angry. Then if I leave the house everyone in this area is so pro-gun, I have to listen to them.
    The past few days have been hard, so thanks for this, I feel better.
    I am going to do some writing.ReplyCancel

  • March 18, 2019 - 3:54 am

    Hanisa Valentino-Santimano - I am one of the many creative soul that every so often I look up at your work but mostly I enjoy reading your messages that are attached to your images. I just listed to your voice mail, and I’m very excited for your road tour that will take you to the UK, and would love to know more about it, if you already have dates and venues organised for London…or maybe Scotland??

    Every time I listen to you or read your thoughts I look in the mirror and I see myself!! You are teaching me, showing me parts of me I would otherwise not notice. So….thank you!ReplyCancel

Attaching to my weirdness.

What is weird art? I think, maybe, there is art, and there is not art. Weird art is just art. That’s how it should be, in my opinion. The weirder the better. The more surprising, the more it feels like art.

I looked back through my images lately, and I noticed that I was freshly drawn to the weird stuff – the body morphing, the distortions, the Photo-shopped flesh. I wanted to belong to that type of weird art genre again.

I let it go because I became too aware of the art world and my position in it. I became savvy to the idea that I was creating weird art instead of just doing it. It became something separate from me.

I need to learn to attach to it again. Let it fill me. I need to do it no matter what, because weird art is the only art worth creating – for me.

This is just a musing on my need to get back to that place. Today it started by acknowledging what I’m currently drawn to in my own body of work. Tomorrow, maybe I’ll get out there and try to create with that inspiration again.

No, not try. I’ll just do it. Art doesn’t have to be good, after all. And, better if it’s not.

  • March 4, 2019 - 9:34 am

    Gallagher Green - I have never created an image with a morphed or distorted body, it is something I should really try. However, I have now posed for one, while in Colorado for Aurora I posed for Dale. I am now going to be a centaur! LOL So I am getting closer to morphed or distorted art. 😉ReplyCancel